There comes a point when you take a look at your life and decide that the way things are just not working, whether it is your relationship, your job or as in my case, how I was expressing my gender identity. For many years I had realised that the gender I was living and functioning as didn’t match how if felt inside and who I was. I can't rationalise that, I can't explain it in any logical way, it was just how I was feeling. Something that has grown inside me for as long as I can remember back into my early years.